| Silence was always present. |
[Nov. 25th, 2009|02:29 am] |
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HAPPY 21st/18th BIRTHDAY CHUBBS!
HAPPY PILL
Happy pill, i honor you, i love you and i LOVE to smother you. (hahahaha)
Although this silence seem so loud, i fought like dog to shut it up. (lol)
42 days down this courtship between two mammals.
Male has seen what he desires, Thy fair sweet female with hot empires.
Her skin.......
i'll continue this.. another day..
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| Maggots chewed my memory. |
[Nov. 3rd, 2009|06:20 pm] |
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Lately, its been like this. i can't recall what i wanna recall. I can't think of the things to say When i had it all planned out in my head. Its irritating. I get so stressed up thinking of stuffs i know. I can't piece up my brain. why am i so forgetful. Sometimes i even need to pause to think of what i wanted to say. When i already knew what to say. it just disappears almost instantly when its all in my head. i hate this feeling. i wanna remember every detail. but it just disappears. |
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| Honey, come back. please? |
[Oct. 30th, 2009|02:07 am] |
I wished i could turn back time. to when you were happy. To when you'd still text me on your own accord. To when you'd still wanna talk to me. To when you'll still miss me. To when you still trusted me. To when you'd still swear at me and curse me. To when your messages would always make me happy. To when you'd still explain everything to me. But not so define and straight forward. Not so serious. To when i still knew something about you.. Now i seem to know nothing about you. Things just changed overnight. There's so much to put in words. Nerissa, I'm sorry. <3 |
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| This couldn't be more unexpected |
[Oct. 24th, 2009|04:58 pm] |
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Some things happen for a reason. Love, this is getting harder. I'm doing my best to fill the empty spaces between us. i really don't feel like going to work. it's not because of any special reason. it's just today. i don't feel like working for just today. A thought just struck me all of a sudden. now i'm feeling all moody and tired. there's a timer placed somewhere. a timer that has already started counting. a timer which i do not know is set at which time which day which year. Whether good or bad the finale is i do not know. it's puzzling and frustrating. going off to work now. i just need to know that its all going to be alright... |
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| tell me if its right or wrong. |
[Oct. 7th, 2009|10:14 pm] |
Dear sweetheart. you know i don't want things to happen this way.
What about the future. i can't possibly keep giving you such nonsense always.
I just want you to be happy, not just with me, also with anyone else you hangout with too.
I tried my best to keep it all inside, but it came out when you asked if i was mad.
I don't know how you feel and think about me now. 'It's okay' were the words you spoke.
If there's anything at all, even the slightest bit, please do let me know.
Because the more i mess things up, the more i shouldn't be around.
I'd do anything just to see you smile. I don't wanna make you moody no more.
If you can't be yourself with me around, i shouldn't keep you around.
Maybe not around around like 24/7, but still, texting you 24/7.
Let me know if you need more space, anything at all.
I feel like I've already started to tie you down. I'm guilty. I don't want that.
Make it easy on yourself, Don't worry about me.
How should i put it in words? maybe. i just don't want to be selfish.
We're still unofficial, you're definitely much more matured.
Maybe i'd never reach your standards. We can never be on par.
But something draws me to you. One day people are going to talk abt it.
Bad things, Whatever. would you mind? well i don't. but thats not for me to decide.
I love you but that doesn't matter. I'm serious about this. But that doesn't matter.
I feel really bad. Well i know what i want. And i think you know too.
But that doesn't matter. What matters most is you and what you want.
how you Feel and what you think of.
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